My Personal Crisis

I haven't posted much this week. Unfortunately work has gotten me down, mentally and physically. I hate when I let work get to me, but this week it has. A few months ago we went from 4 people to 3 at my office. My boss refused to hire someone to replace the person who left because he said business wasn't what it used to be. After the 4Th person left we were down to 2 sales & service people and a receptionist. The other sales & service person happens to be the so called manager and she has the cushy job of doing in service for the office/agent 2 days a month. I'm the lucky one who gets to do her job and mine while she is suppose to be doing the bills. I have no idea how in the world it takes a whole day to do bills, but that is what she gets each month. In addition to that she likes to take 30 to 40 minute bank runs to a bank 2 blocks away and she loves her hour and fifteen minutes to hour and a half lunches. It really gets fun when one of us is on vacation for a week.

Tuesday the receptionist who had been there for 10 years had all the crap she could take. It was just the 2 of us in the office and she was broke out in hives all day due to the stress. She had been threatening to leave for a long time, but only had the courage to do it Tuesday. She told me she was going to get her stuff after work and then leave a note on her desk stating that she couldn't take it anymore.

I'm so proud of her. She finally had the courage to do it. She is single and can always move back home till she gets a job. Normally I would be upset if someone didn't give a 2 week notice, but with Tracy I totally understand and support her.

My boss is trying to get her back, but I don't think Tracy is coming back. I wouldn't! He told her things would change, but I don't see that happening. I would try to be optimistic, but we have been down that road before when others have left and things have never changed.

All of the stress is truly making me want to leave too. I know my full time job is stopping me from building my business to the level I want it to be, but until Cherished Gifts & Favors gets bigger I need the income from my full time job. I am so frustrated because I have so many goals and dreams for my business, but at this point money is keeping me from doing them. If I were single I would do whatever it took to get the money I need to build my business. I am willing to live off credit cards until my business grows, but my husband is really scared of the idea. I know the idea isn't perfect by any means, but I believe in my business, myself, and my dreams. I'm ready to say the hell with my full time job and go for my dreams with everything I have in me.

My husband and I have discussed this issue on a daily basis this week. I am trying to hold off quitting as long as I can, but it gets harder every day. The stress at work has really gotten to me this week. My back and shoulders are full of tension and I'm mentally exhausted. Last night I didn't even have enough energy to post a blog or most importantly do anything business related. I just laid on the couch and zoned out. I rarely ever do that. It seems like a big waste of precious time to spend a whole evening doing nothing when I could be working on business stuff instead.

On the bright side, my husband said he will help me with my eBay Store this weekend if I teach him how to add listings. Wedding season is winding down, but the holiday season will be picking up soon. I need to have all of my personalized gifts and party favors listed in my eBay store before the holiday shopping season starts in a few weeks.